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I'm White, Female, Fat, and Forty. My gallbladder should be going out at any moment. This is the first year in awhile that I have been off on my birthday. It really doesn't change my plans (what plans?) for the day. I suppose any outings will evolve as the day progresses. My MIL said that it is too cold to go do anything. Such is the lot of having a December birthday. Either the weather is a put off or folks have some virus or other. But I did learn today that I share this lot with Ben Browder. How did I not know that?

It is pretty chilly and cloudy outside but I need to exercise. Last week was spent with all the preparation for finals and I didn't get my heart pumping even one day. When I miss, I always worry that I am losing the habit and goodness knows that is the only thing I've got going for me in the fitness department. I can't seem to eat healthy consistently. Most times I make all the right choices but end up going over the 1,100-1,200 calories it takes for me to actually lose weight or the 1,400 -1,500 it takes for me to maintain. I suppose that, by the end of my lifetime, I will have lost and gained the same 40lbs a million times. It's frustrating wanting to do the right thing but never being able to do it for the long, long term but not quite being able to say the heck with it. I'm pretty envious of both the folks who manage to be successful forever AND the folks who finally say the heck with it and are happy about that. But, enough about my continual, mind numbing, and ultimately boring weight issues because

I'm through with my class!! Woohoo!!! And, unless I miscalculated, I aced it! Now, I am going to read what I want, actually use this Netflix I pay for every month, and just generally hang out! From now on, I will have a class and will also preceptor at a clinical site. I am further motivated by the fact that our new owners have really cut us to the quick in a lot of areas. I'd probably leave, but I have the best schedule I have ever had and all of the docs act on different occasions as my own personal instructor. I wouldn't get that one on one interest as the newbie in some diffferent, and likely larger, facility. So, I'll stick it out until December, 2010 when I think I'll finally be done unless I feel that patient care, and my license, is in jeopardy. That scenario is my own personal deal breaker.

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